remodelled refreshed refurbished>€$>in progress
of cancellation and towards a plausible and also unplausible future/! !!".waiting
for something that is nothing.;,:/>standards upheld without an actual progressive
thought in sight/!!:.:. strained and crosseyed with boredom and selfpity&!($$).)is
there something i'm trying to tell you?()>##&>on the road to nowhere,
fresh and smothered<<.1&<the smell of sex, lies and selfannihilation;:!!;--why
expect something more, why feed on the hopes and minds of those around you?--£{_!_this
can not last.!"&¤¤¤2,it suggests that what will
happen will happen to you instead of making you happen to it!!?#.31of course.
an unfathomable thought without forseeable end!:-!!#0..progressive in itself
but the moment it was thought it went unthought>22>press forward always>>!<</
lost in one sense.:,._found in another/_! tense frailty/>.33brittle reality&>@@14&&#
to know that one has peaked in ones life!.3__the dream of being awake but not
being able to move1!""#stories of relations unexplored/#/.cause and
effect?%/¤faith in faith itself5&to have hope and keep it!#¤#").steal
it all back//!it was a fire that i thought could never burn out!&£¤)=what
is left but a fucking pile of ashes.,!!¤/& torn apart by the smallest
of things!#¤¤#".i once thought that maybe i was my worst
enemy!!&().now i know it(!)..2we are all mindcontainers of sorts#¤/(&we
in ourselves are betaversions of what we hope to someday achieve/"111,(&the
waiting for something that might have already happened..,1&¤¤"!)the
possibilities we walked away from/¤?;.-to know that it could have been
but instead let it pass like sand between your fingers&""".;:¤;feel
it escape in every moment!!%¤¤#knowing that for every grain that
falls from your clutched fists you are one further step from ever making it
happen!!&%¤#to have regret#¤/&&(,-to feel you could
have done something!!¤%#62therein it lies<<>11¤imagine
a desert filled with the very same sand!!¤%perspective in the making""¤#437.,--_thought
for food¤%255but why crush the snakes of your self?€421"¤(66,they
like crawling it...sidewinders in that same desert2[[333->crudity and cruelty/"033011.___snakes
and apples"""&35,-_-,how crystal clear&/#&€@how
damp and swamp-like€€%&.neither one/!/$$either one£]}]}have
been thinking me for too long&(/@£it's better to think we@£@$.the
cult of reason is feasting on our fragile egos##¤#&5the road you
walk alone leads away from yourself@441£@$.take the million possibilites
times the million situations, it makes for uncertainty beyond chaos&!3,,3,€$£uncredible/!/€€incredible£{[{embrace
what lies ahead@{]]$or don't@@@432!?you win, always:32.just worldy things"/(#@it
will all perish anyway.@{$€#just like you/)#@and just like me$$£@@£and
just like us...
and fade to black...
